The Deepest Part of Want (The Deep End Trilogy Book 1)
By Sage Hayes
[US Sale] Naomi Hale has been good at everything for so long that goodness became her whole personality. At forty-nine she manages other people's divorces with a voice like calm water, goes home to a house that feels too quiet, and does not look at her own body if she can help it. When pelvic pain and a panic attack drop her to the floor of a Tube platform, her GP suggests aquatic mobility classes. She goes because water hurts less than land.
Farah Rahman teaches women how to move like they h...
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[US Sale] Naomi Hale has been good at everything for so long that goodness became her whole personality. At forty-nine she manages other people's divorces with a voice like calm water, goes home to a house that feels too quiet, and does not look at her own body if she can help it. When pelvic pain and a panic attack drop her to the floor of a Tube platform, her GP suggests aquatic mobility classes. She goes because water hurts less than land.
Farah Rahman teaches women how to move like they have the right to be in the room. She notices immediately that Naomi apologizes before every need — before asking for a float belt, before admitting she is scared, before taking up space she has already paid for. Farah is used to women arriving at Ashdown Baths half-detached from themselves. She is not used to wanting one of them with the force of a bruise.
What begins in the shallow end — careful, deniable, lit by the particular intimacy of steam and chlorine and women with wet hair and no armor — becomes something Naomi cannot keep in the dark. But her eldest daughter has made the terms plain: a quiet separation is survivable. A mother who reinvents herself six months before the wedding is not.
Farah has been someone's secret before. It hollowed her out. She will care for Naomi completely. She will not disappear into her.
To have this love, Naomi must decide whether being desired in the body she has spent years apologizing for is worth detonating the careful life she built on needing nothing. And whether privacy and shame are really as different as she's been telling herself.
Some wants live so deep you forget they're there. Until someone finally notices the flinch.
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